An old message from my sister

On August 2, 2015 my sister attempted to send me this message. This is exactly during the time that I started rebelling towards my abuser. I was 27 years old and 13 years into my relationship with him. And by rebelling I mean, talking back to the abuser and sneaking around with opening up social media, (Facebook) to look for my family and close friends I had when I was a teen. I would install the app while I was at work, do my searches, posts and messages and before the end of the day of work I would uninstall the app. Now when I had my moments of depression and anxiety I would delete my account completely and get lost from everyone again without telling them that I would get lost. I would give my immediate family my phone number but I would switch phones every other few months and get a complete new phone number because that's what my ex would want us to do.

Since the abuse was getting so much worst at this point cause of me talking back, I would just isolate myself to not get questioned by family and friends. Now I think about it and I'm so sorry for involving them in my mixed emotions because I'm sure they thought the worst at times, yet they didn't know how to help me. .. This is the screenshot my sister found on her phone from the message she sent to one of my old phone numbers.