What’s a never ending heartache?

A never ending heartache from my experience is parental alienation. Why you ask? You go from being your child's everything, to being their nothing. In my case, they say I don't even exist to them anymore. I went from the most giving, loving, caring, fun, weird mom and being a part of their everyday life with school, extra curricular activities and cuddles. To calling me by my name with a cold look on their face telling me to stay out of their lives. All because I refuse to stay with their dad, he was able to manipulate the justification to his behavior towards me.

He turned them completely against me, now all I can do is wonder how they're doing, call my teen's school counselor to see how he's been. Order the yearly school pics when I get the email that picture day has been done and write to them as if they're reading it. I'm a complete stranger to them until they choose to snap out of it and choose to have me back in their lives. I'll never get this missing time back, it's an ambiguous grief. Parental alienation has got to be one the worst never ending heartaches.